爱抱佛陀的脚的我

昨天，星期日，是我们佛学会举办的活动之一：慈善探访。
而我，是负责节目的。
但，佛陀的脚太好抱了，星期日的活动，我星期四才开始正视它。
当然，之前也有做准备，但没有去过孤儿院探访，完全没有概念，就这样，一拖再拖，给自己很多借口，说自己很忙，赶着其他的东西，然后就没下落了。
开会，节目一直在改，时间一直变短，很多的变化，眼花缭乱了。。。@@
终于，finalize 节目及活动了， 但很多细节都没讨论，漏洞百出。。没时间了啦~~
星期六去社区佛学班，又用了半天。晚上，和负责人讨论细节。
回房后，准备最后冲刺，还没做完，就昏睡了@@
好笑的是，6点就自己醒来了，很奇迹叻~~没想到会自动起来，果然“有人”也看不下去了，硬硬把我叫醒。。还好有醒，不然没set alarm， 肯定不用去了。。。
继续做未完成的东西。

开始了， 和另一个朋友当主持人，小孩没到齐，人数很少，和预想到的差很远。
没准备plan B，只好走plan A。
小孩太好动了， 静不下来。
PA system 太小声了，现场太吵了， 大家都没听主持人说话。。很无奈。。
没办法了，还是得走下去。。
就这样，
乱水的继续下去。。

就这样，糊里糊涂的结束了今天一整天的流程。。

回来后，问自己，有达到目标吗？
关怀小孩，有做到吗？？
让参与者培养对小孩的慈悲感， 有吗？
不能代替大家说出这个答案。
但我自己的答案是没有。没有试着去关怀小孩，一整天只忙着让活动顺利进行。
没有了解孤儿的感受。
也没有体验到那种感觉。。
自己，只是为了办活动而活动，太差劲了！！

结论：佛陀的脚一点都不好抱，大家请不要学我这错误的示范。
我发愿以后都不要再临时抱佛脚了，也不要只是为了办活动而办活动！！

stick wit my thought

before, i thought of it.
now, that remain unchanged.

although they have
change some things,
make new move,
have big dream,
more people there,

but...

it still remain the same.
work as team,
i din saw it, din sense it, din feel it....

希望越大，失望就越大。
还好，我的希望不大。

supprising BIRTHDAY, love ya

another year pass by...
i getting older
31/8/09 is my 21st birthday....

this year, i decide to do a simple and nice birthday.
i dont like to open a birthday party just like my sis. i dont like invite all my friends to have a celebration at any place. just like to be wit myself, wit my family, live ordinary...

but i get some supprise fr all my friends.
27/8/09, i gt dharmma class. after finishing the class, suddenly the light closed. a cake appear. the song sang. ya, the cake is for us, me and chun li. really supprise coz i din expect them will celebrate my birthday. thanks. i really love it.

monday is holiday. so i went back home.
monday, a simple day. ,my cooking was so delicious.
31/08/09, 12.00am, we blow the candle, we sing the birthday song. wit my dearest mum, and 2 bro. if my sis gt come, then that will be more meaningful. thanks bro for come back home although gt test waiting him.
thanks mum. thanks roland. thanks ronald.

then i continue my journey to USM campus.
reach there about 5AM.
reach here, saw han. so suprise wat she doing at cafe at this hour. not need sleep ah??
then turn back. saw the rest ppl. saw the cake.
wah, unbelieveable. they, still awake at this time, waiting for me to reach here.
shock!!!
touching!!!
but.... luckly i din cried.

really thanks. qin, poh, han, ks, yx, hui ru, gyn, randy, and hui min, who not wit us coz eat medicine, sleep edi.

i really love u all.
my love++++