爱抱佛陀的脚的我

昨天，星期日，是我们佛学会举办的活动之一：慈善探访。
而我，是负责节目的。
但，佛陀的脚太好抱了，星期日的活动，我星期四才开始正视它。
当然，之前也有做准备，但没有去过孤儿院探访，完全没有概念，就这样，一拖再拖，给自己很多借口，说自己很忙，赶着其他的东西，然后就没下落了。
开会，节目一直在改，时间一直变短，很多的变化，眼花缭乱了。。。@@
终于，finalize 节目及活动了， 但很多细节都没讨论，漏洞百出。。没时间了啦~~
星期六去社区佛学班，又用了半天。晚上，和负责人讨论细节。
回房后，准备最后冲刺，还没做完，就昏睡了@@
好笑的是，6点就自己醒来了，很奇迹叻~~没想到会自动起来，果然“有人”也看不下去了，硬硬把我叫醒。。还好有醒，不然没set alarm， 肯定不用去了。。。
继续做未完成的东西。

开始了， 和另一个朋友当主持人，小孩没到齐，人数很少，和预想到的差很远。
没准备plan B，只好走plan A。
小孩太好动了， 静不下来。
PA system 太小声了，现场太吵了， 大家都没听主持人说话。。很无奈。。
没办法了，还是得走下去。。
就这样，
乱水的继续下去。。

就这样，糊里糊涂的结束了今天一整天的流程。。

回来后，问自己，有达到目标吗？
关怀小孩，有做到吗？？
让参与者培养对小孩的慈悲感， 有吗？
不能代替大家说出这个答案。
但我自己的答案是没有。没有试着去关怀小孩，一整天只忙着让活动顺利进行。
没有了解孤儿的感受。
也没有体验到那种感觉。。
自己，只是为了办活动而活动，太差劲了！！

结论：佛陀的脚一点都不好抱，大家请不要学我这错误的示范。
我发愿以后都不要再临时抱佛脚了，也不要只是为了办活动而办活动！！

stick wit my thought

before, i thought of it.
now, that remain unchanged.

although they have
change some things,
make new move,
have big dream,
more people there,

but...

it still remain the same.
work as team,
i din saw it, din sense it, din feel it....

希望越大，失望就越大。
还好，我的希望不大。

supprising BIRTHDAY, love ya

another year pass by...
i getting older
31/8/09 is my 21st birthday....

this year, i decide to do a simple and nice birthday.
i dont like to open a birthday party just like my sis. i dont like invite all my friends to have a celebration at any place. just like to be wit myself, wit my family, live ordinary...

but i get some supprise fr all my friends.
27/8/09, i gt dharmma class. after finishing the class, suddenly the light closed. a cake appear. the song sang. ya, the cake is for us, me and chun li. really supprise coz i din expect them will celebrate my birthday. thanks. i really love it.

monday is holiday. so i went back home.
monday, a simple day. ,my cooking was so delicious.
31/08/09, 12.00am, we blow the candle, we sing the birthday song. wit my dearest mum, and 2 bro. if my sis gt come, then that will be more meaningful. thanks bro for come back home although gt test waiting him.
thanks mum. thanks roland. thanks ronald.

then i continue my journey to USM campus.
reach there about 5AM.
reach here, saw han. so suprise wat she doing at cafe at this hour. not need sleep ah??
then turn back. saw the rest ppl. saw the cake.
wah, unbelieveable. they, still awake at this time, waiting for me to reach here.
shock!!!
touching!!!
but.... luckly i din cried.

really thanks. qin, poh, han, ks, yx, hui ru, gyn, randy, and hui min, who not wit us coz eat medicine, sleep edi.

i really love u all.
my love++++

My SiS Convo

finally, my sis success to graduate!! haha^^
today is her convocation le~~~
feel happy for her.. ^^

but i just manage to catch i photo only... sob T_T
my bus is at 5.15 pm, need to rush and rush to bus station..
....run.... run....and RUN!!!!
at last, i manage to get the bus.. luckily^^

my sis is a pretty gals. she enjoy doing her part time job - as a model so much
if have any events need model, she sure volunteer to join.
she also join some beauty contest, to gain some experience..
hence, this make her result drop very badly.
however, she still manage to complete her study. really feel happy to her.

wish my sis good luck in her new job now.
^^

Exco Trip

11 July 09
today is our 1st exco trip....
but, not so enjoy it....
i swear tat i wont be the organizer anymore!! no next time!! this is the last time!!!!!!
feel tat i so USELESS..... NOTHING i can do well....
this EXCO TRIP, we said fr last sem until now.....
just wan to do after so long time... suppose it will be held in the beginner as a exco.....
but unfortunately, because of someone cant make it.... so postpone....
ok, nvmla.... we change time!!
BUT,,, this time, still hv ppl cant make it!!! FXXK
so, still wan the trip go on... then wat the meaning of postpone last time trip?????
haiz.............

dont have MOOD to think, dont have TIME to plan....
just choose the nearest place.... TAIPING
a very simple trip..... can go anyplace u like... but in taiping....
climbing Maxwell Hill... eating....

wat is EXCO TRIP??
suppose is climbing the hill together.... but someone wan climb on his own... said: wan to let us feel the feeling of abandoned by others. OK, i accept.... this is the Exco trip tat he wan... din care about others feeling.... think himself right!!!
NVM, still continue our journey......
its a long long journey....
where i suppose to be.....
i dono

社区总活动，圆满结束！！

社区23， 总活动，圆满地结束了！！

而我呢？平安到家了！！

当初，迷迷糊糊地，什么也不知，就傻乎乎地跑去报名又去面试参加理工佛学会社区服务计划。
听说，参加社区可以学到很多。嘿嘿，是自我提升的好机会叻~~
听说，可以认识很多来自不同大专的朋友。哇，很大可能会认识到帅哥美女呢！！（流口水了~~）
听说，有机会到全马州透透呢！！YES， 去走走的好机会！！
很多的听说呢。。。

但， 经过了这些日子， 走过了总活动， 听说变成了真实，感觉不一样了！！
很高兴认识到一班好朋友，35个，不多也不少，人数刚刚好噢~~大家都不分男女，每个都是buddy。虽然之前有些已经退出了，但我相信剩下的，会一起走完社区之路的。啊，当然还有6位中央咯~~


这是在平台（筹备）时，大家一起分工合作哦~~


手忙脚乱，要开始布置背景。。区委也一起帮忙呢！！


TEST GAME 咯~~


努力抓啊~~一定要拾到宝物哦~~

之前，从来只为自己找想，现在有一点点想为巴里文打的居民服务了。看到区委们，那么辛苦的协助我们。只要我们金口一开， 不管多无理的要求都是OK！！但因果最终还是出现了，社区计划严重的超支啦！！（完蛋了 T T）以后要省省用了！！

巴里文打的青少年们。。我和汶成的组，布施组~~


当然，还有我的领养家庭啦~~
啊~~~ 我的脸长痘痘了啦！！！怎么办？？
不用怕，我的aunty是美容师咯~~ 哈哈~~ 什么青春痘的，不管你是什么痘，哈哈，我都有办法应付你！！wakaka~~
我家还有两个小美女呢，都很乖哦~~

就是筎茹及玹玹咯^^


唯一的坏处是，aunty、区委、都对我们太好啦~~
最大的梦想是要把我们喂得胖嘟嘟的。。。
完蛋了，我已经胖了几公斤了！！ T T

社区23之路

终于，第二十三届全国大专佛青社区服务计划在巴里文打正式开炮！！
文娱晚会，经过大家一起的努力，顺利地完成第一炮。证明了社区23是行的！！
在总集训里，大家一起生活，一起练习社区23之歌与手语，一起练习choral speaking, 一起开会，一起玩乐，一起吃。。。如果少了任何一个人，社区23就不圆满了。

接着，是青营。3天2夜的生活营，也结束了。大家都很辛苦的做好自己的本分。
在这几天里，大家都严重的睡眠不足，有些还要守夜，更加辛苦！！
但到最后，看到最后青少年都有给与热烈的反应，真的很感动。说有的辛苦都没白费了。

接下来，还有更多活动等着我们。

今天，是黄金放假的日子。。 当然要好好休息，charge 好电，才有energy继续冲！！冲！！冲！！

社区23，有35个人。
社区23，有你真好，
社区23，有你才圆满。